it's been over a week since I developed a mild obsession with leaflet.pub. awesome app, fills the "nerdy + longform" hole that the death of cohost left in my social media diet. mostly techy vibes right now, as the early adopters of any new app usually are.

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when I first made this page it was because for a really long time I've had a penchant for going way harder than is necessary during random text conversations with friends, to which everyone would go "wow, you should write an essay or a book (or something) about this." i am really good at popping the fuck off to a single person, because at the end of the day, i love yapping. i love the fact that text lets me stop, pause, edit, make sure my thought is phrased in the exact way that best communicates the ideas and stirs the all the emotions i need it to, but when i pull up a blank document, my mind goes numb.

the idea that i'm having an active dialogue, or at least the instantaneous feedback of rambling in someone's dms, has always been the perfect motivator for me. so now that i've found a platform that scratches all the right itches i've wanted a longform writing platform to scratch (not that i couldn't write a laundry-list wishlist of features i think would be cool here, but i definitely gel with what exists already), and have committed myself to posting on it, the personal barrier to break now is "what will motivate me to follow an idea for a post all the way through to completion?"

i'm still new to this world (can i call it the blogosphere? does this count? does anyone still say that? would it be a bastardization to bring it back for this?) so i don't have any great insights on breaking said barrier, but in writing down ideas for posts and starting to draft a couple, i've found that i'm really good at blowing the scope of any small idea i have up into something that'd take more effort than my attention span is capable of, so maybe i should play with ways to work around that. dunno yet. just thinking out loud.

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expect another blog about blogging soon. there's at least one really interesting cultural artifact i know about that doesn't answer any of the questions i raise here and that i don't have bookmarked but that i still gotta find and post about because i think it's relevant. SEE YOU THEN!!!!!